I went running this morning again and I enjoyed it this time. My baby, Dawson, is 8 months old now and over the past couple months I've tried to get back into my running groove. Unfortunately, my groove has said things like,
"You slacker, you took off a year! Just because you were pregnant and your feet were swollen, this groove doesn't stay open for slackers."
So, I've had a hard time finding my groove, but I'm all about pushing myself and so I laced up this morning. And it didn't hurt quite as bad and I found my groove for a few minutes! I ran around my neighborhood for 20 minutes and then as I approached my house and looked at my stopwatch, I thought, "Wow, I don't feel like throwing up today, maybe I can do this!" and just because I could, I pushed myself and ran right past my house and around a few more blocks for another half-mile ending at 24 minutes run time.
It felt awesome, even though my body kept telling me things like, "You've had 3 kids, maybe you'll just have to walk."
But I did it and I plan on running again, hopefully before Saturday, but if not I'll keep trying. So if you don't like running you may be thinking I'm weird because why would I want to torture myself? And on another day, I might agree with you. But today I think I conquered another obstacle in my way and it felt great. Things like this help me keep going in the crazy pattern of my life. Running reminds me that I can do the tough stuff and find joy despite challenges.
As I huffed and puffed around the block today, I thought about how running is like writing. Writing is very enjoyable, but the quest to be a published author is extremely hard and full of all kinds of obstacles and *rejections*. But I'm never going to quit trying because if I take a break from the onslaught of writer-ly punishments that come my way in the form of rejection, revision, rewriting, and did I mention rejection?--then I will lose my groove.
Over the past four years, I have traveled leaps and bounds from the novice writer I was to who I am now and I know that my path is far from complete. I learn new things all the time and I enjoy the challenge. I've found a groove I'm comfortable in and I'm working hard to make my words stronger than the obstacles they face.
Anything worth doing requires effort, dedication, and determination. I want to be a successful author of many published works and all I can say is, I'm running for it.